Back under control

My house is a mess!

My iron is so low the American Red Cross refused to take my blood!

I have been eating nothing but bread and Nutella!

Dirty dishes are everywhere!

I have a test in a week and I don't know anything!

I have $50 in unpaid parking tickets because I am too much in a hurry to pay the meter and keep going to places I don't know.

I am stressed!

I am asking Baha'u'llah for help about eight times a day!

Top 10 procrastination list:

x1. Grocery shop

x2. Pay parking tickets

x3. Wash dishes

4. Make flash cards

5. Anatomy 2006 Test

x6. Put away children's class stuff

7. Buy clear storage boxes

x8. Organize kitchen according to labels already posted by my friend

9. Budget

10. Check on replacement backpack/buy a new one
Get refill of prescriptions

Get drug test for volunteering

Go to doctor

xClean refrigerator

Air up bike tires

Put research on calendar

Email PI

xVacuum

xSpecial oatmeal container

xStack tupperware

xEmpty drainer

xWipe counter tops

xSweep

xPay visa card

xTalk to dad

xFix bathroom trash can

xClean toilet


So my volunteering was cancelled this morning and I invested some serious time in taking care of myself. (note the x's!). I have food now (and another parking ticket from the Farmer's Market where I forgot to feed the meter due to STRESS--but at least I mailed off the payment already). Food is going to make so much difference in my stress levels and health next week.

I also cleaned. How quickly things grow filthy! There is no ring around the toilet anymore. I even vacuumed out the corners of my kitchen between the walls and the stove/refrigerator where I keep spilling things. My dishes and pans are where they belong and the garbage is gone.

Seriously, though, I can't let things get like this again. I have a whole battery of exams coming up but once they're over and I've had a little break I'm going to take Sunday, October 17 to sit down and reflect on this first bit of medical school and see how I can make the craziness fall into a reasonable pattern. Call me up afterwards, friends, and hold me accountable to see if I have done my promised reflection!!! I can't let myself run so far out of gas that I can't even make it to the next filling station.

Of course you are wondering what this has to do with increasing my capacity for service, the general topic of my blog. I can only refer you to a quote from Gleanings:

The whole duty of man in this Day is to attain that share of the flood of grace which God poureth forth for him. Let none, therefore, consider the largeness or smallness of the receptacle. The portion of some might lie in the palm of a man's hand, the portion of others might fill a cup, and of others even a gallon-measure.

Pasted from <http://www.bahaullah.com/bahaullah-writings-announcement-part1.html>

This whole blog is about me trying to fill up my cup to the very top of its capacity, but when I don't take care of myself it puts a great big hole in the bottom of my receptacle and all the flood of grace God pours out on me leaks right out!

P.S. I love teatoosk. She is keeping me alive! And I love you, too, yes, you, out there, reading this! Okay, going to do homework now...